When I create
I’m drunk dialing God.

It isn’t like dialing a phone.
It’s all loosey-goosey.

I might end up anywhere
or nowhere.

Maybe that’s the point.

It is
just like dialing a phone
but without a phone book.

And with my eyes closed.

It’s like leaping from a burning building
and knowing from long experience
that I’ll be caught.

It’s calling
out
and up
and knowing that
whatever I connect with
is what I’m supposed to
connect with.

It’s calling God in the middle
of the night
of my life
and saying I’m lost
and I don’t know how to get back
to myself.

The more I do this
the more I reach out
into that shapeless void
and pull out something that
surprises me.

And in finding it
I find myself.

Everytime.