These are not toys.

I was at a movie theater recently and took a look at the toy dispensers. These are the ones that you put in a quarter (or three), turn the knob, and a plastic ball comes out with a toy inside.

The usual things were there – bouncy balls, cheap rings, stickers – and then there were these.

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Here’s a closer shot.
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Grenades. Army tanks. Jet fighters.

But wait – there’s more. There were two machines with questionable stock.

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and closer-

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Handcuffs and grenades.

These are marketed to children? These are supposed to be toys?

And we wonder why our children are violent.

We reap what we sow. We must be more mindful of what we teach our children to admire. If we give them weapons for toys, what will the harvest be? Who will they become?

Word search

We plunged, edge first
into the kayak sunset,
secret valor our only prayer.
Vespers had come too soon,
sulking like a lion
late from a sunburn,
a bone his only friend.

Bonjour to plaid!
Out with olive!
The seasons change faster
than faucets around here.
The suspense is too much to bear.
When will it ever be the right time?
I’ve misplaced my crayons again.

(Commentary)
Fortunately it is never too late to have experiences. Well, it is only too late if you don’t ever start. We are in a cabin at a state park, and instead of watching TV we have a fire going and are enjoying coloring and activity books designed for children. We are lying on the floor in front of said fire. Crayons are involved. We are not drawing in the lines, or even following the implied rules most of the time. This seems like an experience we should have had as children, but didn’t. Forget bucket lists with grand things like skydiving and eating fresh caught mussels on the beach – I just want the holes from my childhood filled.

So I’m doing this word search and I start to see words that aren’t really there. Closure is happening, and the words are just interesting enough that I wrote them down and decided to make a little poem out of them.

Here are the words I found that weren’t really there.
Kayak suspense plaid lion bone vespers sunburn valor prayer Bonjour faucet olive edge secret

Old? Never.

When did my skin get so wrinkly?
When did my doctors get younger than me?
How did this happen?

When did all these young people around me become bit players in my life? When did I start looking at old people for signs of what to expect?

They are “computer illiterate” or using walkers or confused all the time.

I don’t want to become them. I don’t want to be helpless or hopeless or lost. I don’t want to be taken advantage of.

I’ve read that you are only as old as you feel, and that age is a social construct. I feel it knocking on my door.

I don’t want to answer.

I think it is time to pull out my crayons and my fingerpaints. I think I’m going to defeat age by becoming a child again.

It is part of why I tutor kindergartners. I’m learning tips.

Why have a happy childhood?

What is the purpose of ensuring a happy childhood?

It is like Hollywood films. They always have happy endings. Then when you get to your own real life, you get miserable.

It is like women reading romance novels. They read about this amazing man who sweeps her off her feet, and then in reality, every man she meets doesn’t match up. He isn’t ruggedly handsome, he is rather plain. He isn’t a Duke, his hound dog is named Duke. He doesn’t have a six-pack belly, he drinks a six pack nightly.

So to try to create this false happy childhood isn’t fair. It sets children up to become miserable adults. They will learn the world does not revolve around them. They will learn that nobody thinks that everything they do is cute. They will find there are no special accommodations for them.