Morning walk or not – poem

In this morning

this cold morning

the sky touched with the pink the color of rose petals,

of Magnolia blossoms just beginning

I wonder how long it will be

until the sun is awake before quarter till seven

the sky aglow with the sure quiet joy

of awakening.



Because until then

I will wonder how I could possibly have dragged myself out of bed

with time enough to go for a walk

before work,

even on a Saturday

those many months ago,

or so my journal says.



Because right now,

I can’t even imagine getting out of bed

at all

it is so cold and cave-like.

And so I sit here

and write a poem

instead.

And I think maybe this is a kind of walk,

too. Or maybe

I am fooling myself,

again.

On writing.

I’ve always heard that if you want to be a writer, just write.

While this is true, it makes it seem so simple. And it is that simple. Yet it is very hard. Anybody can write. Not everybody can write well. What makes a good writer is a lot of practice and not a lot of self-editing at the beginning.

We think we should be able to write well without any work. We are surrounded by language all the time. We talk in complete sentences (mostly). We are able to make ourselves understood. But writing is a skill that has to be learned and practiced. It doesn’t come naturally.

It is a lot like running a marathon. It isn’t something you just go do. It requires training, and the right mindset, and the right equipment.

I have a degree in English, with a concentration in writing. This doesn’t help me at all. What helps me is that I’ve been writing as long as I can remember. I’ve written in a journal for most of my life. The only time I stopped writing was when my parents died, and at that point I switched to beads as my creative outlet. I strung together beads like I did words. Each bead was symbolic of an idea. I still work with beads even though I’ve gone back to writing. It is refreshing to not use words all the time.

Julia Cameron tells us in “The Artist’s Way” to write three pages every morning. This is very helpful. Write three pages of whatever. It is your warmup. Write about the weather, or how scratchy your pen is, or how much sleep you didn’t get. It doesn’t have to be wonderful, and it probably won’t be. Morning pages aren’t for public distribution. Morning pages are to get things going. You may come up with something fabulous or a seed of a blog post from morning pages, but don’t worry if you don’t.

Carry a notebook with you at all times. Become a sifter, a picker. Ideas will come to you and your job as a writer is to catch them and save them. Anne Lamott says ” Carry a pen with you everywhere, or else God will give me all these insights and images that were supposed to go to you.” This way, when you are ready to write, you already have the ideas captured. It is then simple to string them together into paragraphs and pages.

This took me a long time to figure this one out – divide the notebook in sections. Put a topic at the top of each page as it comes to you. Fill in the pages as more of that topic comes. This way you aren’t flipping the notebook pages back and forth trying to find similar notes when it is time to write.

Margaret Guenther in “Holy Listening” tells us that it is OK to cover the same topic. You won’t ever exhaust certain topics, and by approaching them from different angles on different days, you’ll find out different things. Go ahead and write what you have to say now, knowing that you might have other things to say about it later. You won’t ever have it all in one place. Write anyway.

It takes a pretty high level of self esteem to write when you know other people are reading it. It means you think that you have something worthy of being heard. Here’s the important part – everybody has something worth being heard. Every single person’s voice is important. Use yours. I’m giving you permission. Even if you think it is just silly rambles, write anyway. Somebody will get something from it. The more you write, the better you’ll get at it too.

Do something rather than nothing. Your post might not be as wonderful as you think it should be. It might be OK, but not stellar. It is better to post it and move on than to not post it at all. I’m always surprised when people say that they really liked something that I thought wasn’t my best.

Whatever you write, it will look pretty ugly at the beginning. Nobody writes perfectly composed pieces at the beginning. This is true at the beginning of writing in general, and writing each piece. Let go of the self-criticism and just keep working.