Story-time church

So many church leaders wonder why folks are leaving the church – they think it is because they haven’t heard the Gospel.  Little do they realize they have heard the Gospel, and they aren’t seeing it lived out in the Church.  

Church should be more like Second Harvest or the Red Cross, rather than a sing-a-long and storytime.  Church has been infantilized. Church is more like preschool than preparation for work. 

Let’s look at how church is done currently with new eyes.  Currently, this is what happens –

You sing hymns.  The choir has practiced and leads the way, and you fumble along.  You’ve all got the words in the book in front of you, or up on a screen if you are in a modern church.  The songs are designed to cheer you up, but also to wake you up.  You have to stand to sing them in many churches.  So you are getting a little stretching in too. 

They read stories to you from the Bible, telling you about all the things that happened way back when to everyone else.  You’ve never told how to be in those stories – how to make them come alive for you, or to recognize them happening to you right now. Over a thousand years ago, you’d not even be allowed to read the Word for yourself – you’d be expected to just listen.  Also – you probably couldn’t even understand it – it was in Latin, which nobody spoke.  The stories weren’t meant for you to hear and understand.  Somehow the words were supposed to have some sort of magic power, just the syllables were enough.  Even though the words are in the local language now, you still aren’t taught how to live them out. 

You aren’t allowed to discuss the stories.  Your participation is not required – and in many cases it is not allowed.  It certainly isn’t encouraged. You can read them for yourself on your own time if you want, but sharing your own interpretation is not OK.  You aren’t ordained.  You haven’t been to graduate school to get a degree in ministry – so you aren’t worthy of an opinion.  The interpretation of God’s message is for the minister – not the people in the pews.  This is just like pre-school – the teacher runs the class, not the students. 

You get to play dress up – you wear your best clothes, and if you go to a liturgical church, the choir, altar party, and minister put on robes.  You wear clothes you don’t wear any other time or in any other place. You can’t dress like you normally do.  This furthers the idea that what happens in church stays in church, and that God doesn’t show up at 10 a.m. on a Tuesday while you are at work. 

It is like God is a special toy.  God is pulled out to play with once a week, and not even for a full day.  Then God is put back into the box, to be forgotten for another week. 

You get a snack too – communion. It isn’t a meal – just a sip of wine (or grape juice) and a wafer or a cracker.  It isn’t a meal by any stretch of the imagination.  It is just a little tiny thing, a symbol.

What is evil?

How interesting that the Hebrew word for demon

שד

Is related to the word for fallow land

שדה בור

And battlefield, and minefield

And related to looted, robbed

שדדו

Evil is not using resources properly,

potential fruitfulness wasted,

through human means.  It isn’t an accident.

It is

intentional or unintentional

mis-use of a gift from God.

Unintentionally

wasting your life

has the same result

as intentionally wasting it.

Not choosing

to be mindful,

to be a good steward

is to choose evil,

to allow it in.

Tastes change

I’m trying to do what my spiritual director said and invite Jesus into this feeling.  I’m trying to let him be the gold that glues the pieces back together. 

Sometimes I don’t even want the old pieces anymore.  Sometimes I want it all to crumble away and have it all be filled again, new – a new pot or plate, or bowl.  To burn it all away in a refinery fire.  To have the good separated from the bad by the refining fire of God.  I want to be harvested and reaped and burn away and reborn and not be broken.  To not build on my past and my emptiness. 

I know God made me the way he made me because he needs me this way but now I feel that it is time to start anew.  (But it isn’t about what I feel)  I want to have a fire in my soul.  Start fresh, with new-to-me dishes and towels.  I’d probably buy new sheets.  But otherwise I’m OK with Goodwill.  I think there is a lot of God to be found in Goodwill.  But I digress. 

I am reshaping myself.  Or, I am allowing myself to be reshaped.  I am feeling my way into this new life and trying to see it as a child – that everything is new and worthy of testing.  Try it, you might like it.  I’m open to trying all the things that I tried in the past to see if I’ve changed.  Kale?  I like it.  Anything more than half a bar of chocolate – I’m a PMS monster.  What a surprise!

Tastes change and that isn’t just about your tongue.  This is for and against.  It is good to be open.  Don’t go with what has always been just because it has always been.  It might be holding you back.  It might be a crutch.  You might be allergic.  Treat every experience as a new thing.  Lean into it.  Feel it out.  Touch it, smell, it taste with new senses.  And be thankful.  It is good to be thankful for what you are about to receive, rather than what you just got. 

Everything is a gift. 

This is backwards and yet it is the Way.

I haven’t heard God in a while but I also haven’t been journaling or reading the Bible or any other religious book.  It is hard to hear when you are talking so much. 

(started 3/3/2013, updated 5/11/20)

Why God?

Why believe in God?


I had a friend who I decided was God blind.  Like color blind but for God.
He couldn’t see any reason to believe in God.  This blew my mind.
I’ve always known of God.

The time when I was a baby in the crib
The rescuing by an angel when I was flying too high on the swings.
It is like being a fish and not believing in water.

Some people are color blind.
My dad couldn’t see purple. We were in the car together and he saw
another car.  He asked what color it was.  That made no sense to me.
How could you not see this?  It is such a simple question.  But he had
an inability to see reds and greens. I’d forgotten, and to be honest
I’d never really understood.  How can I understand something so basic
as an inability to see color?

The same with God.

I have Buddhist neighbors.  The mom was sick with kidney disease and it was
really worrying the son.  He cried to tell me how concerned he was for
her health. I know a little about Buddhism but couldn’t remember if
praying was part of it.  Buddhism informs my Christianity.

I asked him if he could pray for his Mom.  No.  So I did.
I don’t pray with the idea that God is my waiter.  I ask and I
receive.  Yes, sometimes it is like that.  But I pray because I know
there is someone on the other end of the line who is listening and who
cares.

Sometimes I think of God as standing at the top of a pit I’ve fallen
in.  He isn’t in sight, but if I call to him, he can point out a hand
hold that I can’t see from my angle.

(updated 5/11/20)

False information is worse than nothing.

I’m getting frustrated with all the “information” being shared these days about how to defeat the virus, none of which has been proven by science. Why share something that isn’t true or helpful? Why theorize if you aren’t a scientist? So many armchair experts these days.

I have plenty of insight that I’ve received about how to make it through these unusual and challenging times but I have not shared them. Why? Because I’m not an expert. I’m not a doctor or nurse. I’m not a homeopath. I’m just a person. And my “information” isn’t based on science but intuition. I have no desire to mislead people. And honestly, most people don’t listen to me anyway.

And maybe that is part of this time: that we all must keep our own confidences. We all must follow the advice of our heart, and not anyone else’s. When you know, you know, and nobody can tell you otherwise. When you don’t know, you won’t listen no matter what.

Art Journal (digital) books

Need something to spark your creative side, but have to get the book digitally? Try these! Some are through Overdrive (the app is called Libby). One option is an urban sketching video course through Libby. Other options are e-magazines through RBI digital.

Overdrive (Libby)

Art Journal Courage: Fearless Mixed Media Techniques for Journaling Bravely    Author: Dina Wakley

Art Journal Kickstarter:  Pages and Prompts to Energize Your Art Journals    Author: Kristy Conlin

Art Journal Art Journey: Collage and Storytelling for Honoring Your Creative Process     Author: Nichole Rae

Inner Hero Creative Art Journal: Mixed Media Messages to Silence Your Inner Critic   Author: Quinn McDonald

The Art Journal Workshop: Break Through, Explore, and Make it Your Own     Author: Traci Bunkers

The journal junkies workshop: Visual Ammunition for the Art Addict     Author: Eric Scott

– Raw Art Journaling    Author: Quinn McDonald

The Secret Letters Project: A Journal for Reflection, Growth, and Transformation Through the Art of Letter Writing    Author:  Juliet Madison

 – Creative Wildfire: An Introduction to Art Journaling–Basics and Beyond      Author:  LK Ludwig

No Excuses Art Journaling: Making Time for Creativity      Author: Gina Rossi Armfield

Bible Journaling Made Simple: An Art-Filled Journey for Creative Worship     Author:  Sandy Allnock

The art of urban sketching: drawing on location around the world     Author: Gabriel Campanario

The urban sketcher: techniques for seeing and drawing on location Author: Marc Taro Holmes

Lynda

Drawing Foundations: Urban Sketching     Author:   Kemp, Will

RBI digital magazines

Cloth Paper Scissors

American Craft

(Completed 4/2/20)

Open letter to health insurance companies:

My health insurance company asked me how they could do better. I answered like this –

It would be nice if it cost less. I don’t think I get $400 a month of use out of my health insurance. Make it so everybody can afford it. That way, they wouldn’t have to work so hard and stress so much about their bills – thus staying healthy. If people could afford health insurance on part-time work, they’d have time to exercise, visit with friends, and do the things that matter to them. We all know how important these things are to staying healthy. Or, if the rates need to stay the same, I’d love it if we as a society could turn “health care” into actually caring for health, instead of just managing disease. Too many folks don’t have time to take care of their health, so they get sick. “Health care” becomes “disease management” and palliative care, rather than truly helping people achieve health. It would be great if your health insurance company would pay for visits to nutritionists, personal trainers, massage therapists, and acupuncturists, for example. We live in changing times. It is time for new ways of thinking.

Things to do in a quarantine.

Virtual tours of museums –

https://www.travelandleisure.com/attractions/museums-galleries/museums-with-virtual-tours

Art prompts from Keri Smith, creator of “Wreck this Journal” –

https://www.explorationoftheday.com/

Music from the Metropolitan Opera –

“In an effort to continue providing opera to its audience members, the Met Opera will host “Nightly Met Opera Streams” on its official website to audiences worldwide. These free streams will present encores of past performances from its famed Live in HD series. The encore presentations will begin at 7:30 p.m. EST each night on the company’s website (see below) and and will then be available for an additional 20 hours thereafter.”

https://www.metopera.org/

Check your local library’s databases – with mine, you can learn lots of different languages and how to play a musical instrument, for example. You can learn Mandarin and Mandolin!

Make art. You know that project you’ve been putting off? Now is a great time to finish it.

Go for a walk. You aren’t supposed to stay stuck inside, just away from people.

No laughing matter.

While funny, it is also sometimes fatal. I resent having to be super careful around men, but I know that it is my own life I protect – and the life of other women around him.

A man, uncivilized, is like a wild animal.

If I stand up to a man who is harassing me and he feels shamed or embarrassed because of it – I could be attacked by him later. Or he could take it out on another woman he knows who he feels is submissive. This is no laughing matter.

Yes – we have to address this and change society. This cannot continue. But until we have a population of men who can control themselves, women are at risk.

Mystical book list

Codependent No More: How to Stop Controlling Others and Start Caring for Yourself   Beattie, Melody

The Complete Artist’s Way : Creativity as a Spiritual Practice  Cameron, Julia

The Teachings of Don Juan: A Yaqui Way of Knowledge Castañeda, Carlos

Be Here Now  Dass, Ram

The True Power of Water  Emoto, Masaru

Monday Night Class Stephen Gaskin

Andy Goldsworthy: A Collaboration with Nature  Goldsworthy, Andy

You Can Heal Your Life  Hay, Louise L.

The Tao of Pooh   Hoff, Benjamin

Two Ravens: The Life and Teachings of a Spiritual Warrior     Irwin, Louis Two Ravens

The Principles of Uncertainty   Kalman, Maira

The Paradise War (The Song of Albion, #1)   Lawhead, Stephen R.

The Skin Map (Bright Empires, #1)   Lawhead, Stephen R.

A Wrinkle in Time (Time Quintet, #1)   L’Engle, Madeleine

Walking on Water: Reflections on Faith and Art   L’Engle, Madeleine

Dreamhealer: His Name Is Adam      McLeod, Adam

Take This Bread: A Radical Conversion       Miles, Sara

Dying to Be Me: My Journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing   Moorjani, Anita

Anatomy of the Spirit: The Seven Stages of Power and Healing  Myss, Caroline

Sacred Contracts: Awakening Your Divine Potential   Myss, Caroline

A Hidden Wholeness: The Journey Toward an Undivided Life   Palmer, Parker

Let Your Life Speak: Listening for the Voice of Vocation  Palmer, Parker

Women Who Run With the Wolves   Pinkola Estés, Clarissa

Sermon on the Mount According to Vedanta Prabhavananda

Small Gods (Discworld, #13)   Pratchett, Terry

The Essential Rumi   Rumi

The Mindbody Prescription: Healing the Body, Healing the Pain   Sarno, John E.

Difficult Conversations: How to Discuss What Matters Most   Stone, Douglas

The Arrival  Tan, Shaun

The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment  Tolle, Eckhart

The Secret of the Beloved Disciple   Twyman, James F.

Emissary of Light: A Vision of Peace    Twyman, James F.

The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma  van der Kolk, Bessel A.

The Yoga of Jesus: Understanding the Hidden Teachings of the Gospels Paramahansa Yogananda

The Highly Sensitive Person’s Survival Guide   Zeff, Ted