Stories from the City

When were they coming? They should be here already. But wasn’t this always the trouble with pre-cogs? You saw the future and had to live into its completion until it finally happened.

Evan knew this forest before anyone else did. He knew how it would produce the trees that would be felled and shaved and sliced to make the house. That house. The one where people went to die.

But it wasn’t time yet. The house hadn’t been imagined, much less designed. The community didn’t know they needed it, didn’t know there was a problem to be fixed. Not until the town meetings, where one by one, amid hushed conversations during the breaks, never during the group meetings, people confessed to their secrets.

There was a lot of death in that town, and a lot of it was the same. A lot of overdoses that weren’t talked about, for fear of bringing shame to the family. Too, there were a lot of middle-aged people dying decades before their time due to legal addictions. So much substance-abuse in that little town. They never thought it would come to them, but it did, slowly, trickling in like a dirty fog. It came in from the big towns, the boomtowns, the towns where nobody knew your name.

Lawrenceburg thought it could never happen to them, but Evan knew better. Nothing surprised him because he’d seen it before in his visions. The future passed before his eyes like a dance of ghosts, half there, indistinct and yet somehow certain. He’d had the sight all his life, yet he didn’t know he could see any different from anyone else. Nobody else in his family had the sight – or if they did they didn’t say. It wouldn’t do to get people talking and wondering. Fear of the unusual got people burned way back when. Now it just got them committed. And nobody took you seriously after that.

That wouldn’t do for Evan. The messages he received were too important to be dismissed. So he had to tell, but do it carefully. So he wrote stories. People liked stories. It is why Jesus used parables. Stories got down under the skin and started to change you, make you think and act in new ways. Stories were how you reprogrammed people. Not rules. Not laws. The most unrepentant criminal would break the law just because, to prove he could. Deep down a lot of criminals and bullies never got past the terrible twos. With stories however, that was another kettle of fish. Stories would change a person without them even knowing.

Evan wrote stories about the town, but he changed all the names.  Too close, too much like fact and nobody would listen.  He read them out loud at any gathering he could – county-fairs, book signings, coffee house meetings of poets and upstarts.  He sold his books to people who wanted to read them for themselves, of course, but the real work was in the hearing.  Heard stories slipped past the brain and went right to the heart – or the stomach, depending on the aim.  This is the secret truth of stories which all successful prophets and revolutionaries know. 

Evan had started telling his story a decade ago, when he first saw it play out before his eyes.  He could tell by how it reeled out that he would have to start softening the people of his town immediately.  Some visions could wait, but not this one.  The town would be a husk by then, a ghost town.  Those who weren’t actually dead would be darn near enough, wasting away from cancer or zoned out on benzos or fentanyl.  The walking near-dead – all of them, just biding time until the grave.  Evan had to work long and hard if he wanted to avoid that.

His visions were not set – but simply shadows of things that may be, rather than those that will be.  The certainty of the future lay only in the course of non-intervention. If he did nothing, his vision would play out. No matter how small his action, it would improve the situation.

The house of death that was to be built was oddly named.  Everyone who entered left at the end of their term on their own two feet – not feet first.  What died were their bad habits and old ways.  But in order for this house to be built, he had to keep the forest intact.  Too many forests were being leveled in the name of “progress”.  New subdivisions or grazing land for cattle or acreage for yet another mall that looks like a little town kept appearing while the old-growth forest kept disappearing.  You didn’t need to be a prophet to see where that was headed.  But you did need to be a prophet to steer the community in the direction of its own healing. 

 (Inspired by artwork by Dan McCarthy, of the same name)

Unusual wi-fi names

Here’s a list of names of wi-fi that I’ve come across. I’ll add to it as I find more. 

Lizard Thicket

Te$$ertam

Chinafrica Guest

Maverick

NOTYOURDADDY

Kellogg’s Serial

Unfriendly2

jimmy carter’s Network

Asstastic

Ladgraceram2.4

Ostrander

Burshki

Dwight

earnest

enlazer_huesped

GEMINIGIRL-2.4

Metalgear

NoFreeWiFiHere’

NeverSoSlow

Prevatt

Jones Airways

CoeCoe27

Go Hokies

MarsOrBust

lucyisabutt_2.4

LifesABeach

dada

TB Orbi90

OutOfService

bonster

Davecave

Ting@City of Promise_2.4G

Wahoostop

Lich

We women are not seen (poem)

We women
are not seen
as sovereign
but subject.

We women
are not seen
as full members
of society.

We are seen
as animals
as pets
as property.

While legally
we have the right
to vote
we have very little else.

Our bodies are seen
as things
to be owned
to be used
by others,
but not as our own.

We are seen as playmates
and not people.

It is as if we are members
of some foreign country
exiled from our homeland
surrounded by people
who have not granted us
full citizenship.

In short,
we women
are not seen.

An eclectic list of healing books.

Castaneda, Carlos. The Teachings of Don Juan: A Yaqui Way of Knowledge (Book one in a series)

Hammerschlag, Carl. Healing Ceremonies: Creating Personal Ritual for Spiritual, Emotional, Physical, and Mental Health

Kolk, Bessel A. van der. The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma

McLeod, Adam. Dreamhealer: His Name Is Adam

Mindell, Arnold. The Shaman’s Body: A New Shamanism for Transforming Health, Relationships, and the Community

Myss, Caroline. Anatomy of the Spirit: The Seven Stages of Power and Healing

Olitzky, Kerry M. Jewish Paths Toward Healing and Wholeness: A Personal Guide to Dealing with Suffering

Tolle, Eckhart. The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment

Panic attack

Remember to breathe from your abdomen. It takes time to make that natural. Shallow breathing is normal, but it tells the brain that things are in crisis mode.

Get 8 hours of sleep.

Eat more fiber and no processed sugar. Natural fruit is fine, just don’t go overboard on it.

Go for a walk.

Stretch. Yoga is helpful.

Don’t watch or read the news.

Make art.

Connect with God through prayer.

The panic attacks are physical. They are not “real”. They feel real because you are in your body and you feel them. You can learn to observe them and see them as a sign that you are going off track. Refer to the list above. What is being neglected? Do that.

I have to do all these things every day to feel human.

Interrupted while reading

This is a fairly normal occurrence – I’m reading a book while eating my lunch. People (usually guys) think that they have to comment on it. It happened last Friday, when an older lady felt it necessary to then tell me that she only reads the Bible and Christian fiction. (I was reading a science-fiction book, which usually makes people like her twitch) Instead of letting her “witness” to me (because I’ve seen this play out before that way), I turned it around and said that I can find goodness in everything I read, because God is everywhere. That kind of short-circuited her head.

She has no idea who I am, that I have written several non-fiction Christ-based books. This kind of blind “witnessing” is something that Jesus never did.

In general, the guys use this as an opportunity to hit on me. The ladies use it as an opportunity to “witness”. Both don’t get that I’m not buying what they are selling – for the first, I’m married. For the second, I’m already a member of the club.

But either way, it is rude, on many levels. It just isn’t a good way to start a conversation or a relationship.

I’m thinking of coming up with a script like “Yeah, isn’t it strange that total strangers think it is OK to interrupt someone who is minding her own business, reading a book?”

Is reading in public such an anomaly that it requires comment?

Butterflies of 2018

First sightings of butterflies for the year.  All in Old Hickory, TN.  I am an amateur butterfly spotter, so the IDs are as accurate as I can make them for now.

July 5, 2018

Zebra Swallowtail

709b

Eastern Tiger Swallowtail

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July 9

Silver spotted skipper

709

July 11

Cloudless Sulphur

711b

Cabbage (?)  – very active, hard to photograph and ID

711

Skipper (of some sort – there are a lot…)

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July 18

Gulf Fritilary

718

July 19

Pipevine Swallowtail

719

July 24

Hummingbird moth (Snowberry Clearwing) – not a butterfly, but still cool

724b

July 25

Variegated Fritilary

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Spicebush swallowtail – probably a male

July 25

July 26

Female Eastern Tiger Swallowtail

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Male Eastern Tiger Swallowtail (first sighting was July 5, but this is a better photograph)

724

July 31

Horace’s Duskywing Skipper

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Dark morph Female Eastern Tiger Swallowtail

8-1-18

Monarch

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8-2-18

Hackberry Emperor

Cloudless sulphur (a better picture)

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August 11

Common Buckeye

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8/23/18. Grey Hairstreak

8-30-18   Great Spangled Fritilary.   This was huge – nearly as large as an Eastern Tiger Swallowtail.

9-29-18   Long-tailed skipper.

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