The Second Coming has already happened, and is happening.

There are many times after Jesus arose from the dead that he showed himself to his disciples. They rarely recognized him at first. These are people who knew him well and were expecting him to come again, and they didn’t know it was him.

Let’s look at the various examples as we come across them in the Gospels. I’m using the Holman Christian Standard Bible for this translation, but you can use any that you want. I’m deeply indebted to the Bible Gateway website for digitizing the Bible in many translations. It makes this so much easier.

Piecing together stories from the Gospels is a bit like looking at different reports from eyewitnesses to an accident. Some leave some things out, some emphasize other parts. To get the whole picture we have to look at what everybody has to say.

The story starts in Matthew 28:1-7, when Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went to the tomb to take care of Jesus’ body. They didn’t have time to properly prepare his body after he died because the Sabbath was coming. They arrive, and they see an angel at the tomb. He tells them that Jesus isn’t there, that he has risen.

Then we see this, in Matthew 28:8-10.
“8 So, departing quickly from the tomb with fear and great joy, they ran to tell His disciples the news.9 Just then Jesus met them and said, “Good morning!” They came up, took hold of His feet, and worshiped Him. 10 Then Jesus told them, “Do not be afraid. Go and tell My brothers to leave for Galilee, and they will see Me there.”

He appears to them when they leave the tomb, and they worship him. In this version of the story, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary are able to recognize Jesus immediately. I like that he calls his disciples his brothers here. This is a term of equals, and not of master and student. I also find it interesting that he doesn’t tell the women to bring the men there, but for them to go on ahead and he will meet them.

The two Marys do as they are told and the men go ahead.

Matthew 28:16-20
16 The 11 disciples traveled to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had directed them. 17 When they saw Him, they worshiped, but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came near and said to them, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. 19 Go, therefore, and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe everything I have commanded you. And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

There are a few things of note here. Notice that some of the disciples worshiped, but some doubted. They know Jesus. They spent all their time with him. Here he is, just like he said, back from the dead, and these people are full of doubt. What would cause them to doubt? Did he look different? Some versions of the Gospels indicate this. I find it also really important that Jesus says in verse 20 that “I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

Notice he said “I am with you”. Not “I will be with you”, but “I am with you”. That is present tense. He’s here. There is no future.

Now let’s look at the book of Mark, in chapter 16, at the same point. The women have gone to the tomb as before. In this version they are listed as Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James, and Salome. They too hear from an angel that Jesus isn’t there and they leave,” running from the tomb, because trembling and astonishment overwhelmed them” (in verse 8).

Then we hear in verses 9-11,
9 Early on the first day of the week, after He had risen, He appeared first to Mary Magdalene, out of whom He had driven seven demons. 10 She went and reported to those who had been with Him, as they were mourning and weeping. 11 Yet, when they heard that He was alive and had been seen by her, they did not believe it.

Mary Magdalene sees him first. She tells the disciples and they don’t believe her. I’d like to think that they don’t believe her in part because she was seen as less-than-credible because she used to have seven demons in her. Even though she is healthy and whole now because Jesus healed her, that taint of “possession” and of “crazy” is on her. Nobody listens to crazy people.

Then in versus 12-13 we read
12 Then after this, He appeared in a different form to two of them walking on their way into the country. 13 And they went and reported it to the rest, who did not believe them either.

Notice now he’s appeared to two of the disciples, not just to Mary Magdalene. This is a separate encounter. Notice also that it is “in a different form.” He just doesn’t look like himself. He keeps changing how he looks. They are made to understand that this is Jesus, and then they too are not believed. These are the “sane” ones, the not-formerly-possessed ones, and the others don’t get it. Perhaps the others think the madness is catching.

Then he appears for a third time, to all of them. This is in verse 14.
14 Later, He appeared to the Eleven themselves as they were reclining at the table. He rebuked their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they did not believe those who saw Him after He had been resurrected.

He’s a little ticked off that they didn’t believe the other followers who saw him.

In verses 17-20 we read this-
17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In My name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new languages; 18 they will pick up snakes, if they should drink anything deadly, it will never harm them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will get well.” 19 Then after speaking to them, the Lord Jesus was taken up into heaven and sat down at the right hand of God. 20 And they went out and preached everywhere, the Lord working with them and confirming the word by the accompanying signs.

Now, while I’m not into the idea of snake-handling and poison-drinking (I’ve written about this part in another post), I included all of this because of the few words in verse 20 “…the Lord working with them…”

Jesus was there, with them, healing the sick, casting out demons. They weren’t alone. He’s back.

Now we move on to the Gospel according to Luke. Let us see what this eyewitness has to say about what is going on.

Luke 24:1-8
On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, they came to the tomb, bringing the spices they had prepared. 2 They found the stone rolled away from the tomb. 3 They went in but did not find the body of the Lord Jesus. 4 While they were perplexed about this, suddenly two men stood by them in dazzling clothes. 5 So the women were terrified and bowed down to the ground.“Why are you looking for the living among the dead?” asked the men. 6 “He is not here, but He has been resurrected! Remember how He spoke to you when He was still in Galilee, 7 saying, ‘The Son of Man must be betrayed into the hands of sinful men, be crucified, and rise on the third day’?” 8 And they remembered His words.

The same things happen. The passage is a bit vague here on who “they” were who were at the tomb, but from the context we know it isn’t the male disciples. Once again, they don’t find Jesus. In this case there are two angels there.

I love what they say in verse 5.
“Why are you looking for the living among the dead?”

That is what we are doing when we continue to wait for Jesus to come again. We are looking in the wrong place.

The women had to be reminded in verse 7 of the words of Jesus.
“The Son of Man must be betrayed into the hands of sinful men, be crucified, and rise on the third day.”

The words of Jesus were what aided their faith. This is important. We know Jesus through words. He is the Word made flesh, after all.

Let’s keep going on. Now we are at Luke 24:9-12
9 Returning from the tomb, they reported all these things to the Eleven and to all the rest. 10 Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Mary the mother of James, and the other women with them were telling the apostles these things. 11 But these words seemed like nonsense to them, and they did not believe the women. 12 Peter, however, got up and ran to the tomb. When he stooped to look in, he saw only the linen cloths. So he went home, amazed at what had happened.

This story has more women who are involved, telling the story. It isn’t just “crazy” Mary – it is a lot of women. They still aren’t believed. Their words seem like “nonsense.” In this version however, Peter at least goes to the tomb to look. While he doesn’t see Jesus, he does think something pretty amazing has happened. Also, in this version, we don’t hear about Jesus appearing to Mary Magdalene, as he did in Matthew and Mark’s versions of the story. But in this version, we get a really great version of the walk to Emmaus.

Luke 24:13-35 (I’ve broken it up to comment on it)
13 Now that same day two of them were on their way to a village called Emmaus, which was about seven miles from Jerusalem. 14 Together they were discussing everything that had taken place.15 And while they were discussing and arguing, Jesus Himself came near and began to walk along with them. 16 But they were prevented from recognizing Him. 17 Then He asked them, “What is this dispute that you’re having with each other as you are walking?” And they stopped walking and looked discouraged.

—–Jesus just drifts into their conversation, and they don’t recognize him. You know those people who just swoop in on your conversation and you think they are rude? They might be more important than you realize.

18 The one named Cleopas answered Him, “Are You the only visitor in Jerusalem who doesn’t know the things that happened there in these days?” 19 “What things?” He asked them.

—–Of course Jesus knows what has happened. He is playing along, to see what they say.

So they said to Him, “The things concerning Jesus the Nazarene, who was a Prophet powerful in action and speech before God and all the people, 20 and how our chief priests and leaders handed Him over to be sentenced to death, and they crucified Him. 21 But we were hoping that He was the One who was about to redeem Israel. Besides all this, it’s the third day since these things happened.22 Moreover, some women from our group astounded us. They arrived early at the tomb, 23 and when they didn’t find His body, they came and reported that they had seen a vision of angels who said He was alive. 24 Some of those who were with us went to the tomb and found it just as the women had said, but they didn’t see Him.”

—-They still don’t believe in who Jesus is. They don’t believe the stories that the women told because they didn’t see it for themselves. They also don’t understand that radical transformation of anything, especially people, doesn’t happen overnight. But it does have to start somewhere.

25 He said to them, “How unwise and slow you are to believe in your hearts all that the prophets have spoken! 26 Didn’t the Messiah have to suffer these things and enter into His glory?” 27 Then beginning with Moses and all the Prophets, He interpreted for them the things concerning Himself in all the Scriptures.

—-They have to be wondering at this point who this guy is, who knows all this Scripture and can speak about it so effortlessly. They still don’t get it. He is just a guy walking along with them, and they don’t see who he really is.

28 They came near the village where they were going, and He gave the impression that He was going farther.

—-To me, this is the most amazing part. “He gave the impression that He was going farther.” He was going to keep on walking. He was going to leave them where they were. These are his disciples. These are his chosen people. And they haven’t recognized him. So he is going to keep on walking.

This is huge. This part alone is worthy of its own post, but I’ll try to contain it here.

Every single time we don’t recognize Jesus he walks on until he finds someone who does recognize him. So we have to seek him everywhere. Remember how we are to “seek, and you will find”? We have to seek. Mother Teresa said that she saw Jesus in every single person she served – babies abandoned by their poor parents, people suffering from AIDs, old people turned out by their families because they were sick. She saw Jesus in every person. She saw him there because she was looking for him.

This is the secret. This is the answer. We have to look for him, everywhere, in everyone. He’s hiding in plain sight. When we look for him, he reveals himself to us.

These disciples aren’t there yet –but what saves them is that they offered hospitality. This is an excellent start.

29 But they urged Him: “Stay with us, because it’s almost evening, and now the day is almost over.” So He went in to stay with them.

—-Hospitality is the key. They day is getting late and they are looking out for him. They want him to be safe and warm. This is a stranger and they are showing him kindness. This is the way in.

30 It was as He reclined at the table with them that He took the bread, blessed and broke it, and gave it to them. 31 Then their eyes were opened, and they recognized Him, but He disappeared from their sight.

—-They finally got who he was when they ate the bread that he served to them. I find it interesting that the formula is always the same – he blessed it and then he broke it. Always give thanks first. This is true communion here – not the ritual. This is a sharing of a real meal, and a true recognition of the Divine in our midst. And then he disappeared. Poof. Gone.

32 So they said to each other, “Weren’t our hearts ablaze within us while He was talking with us on the road and explaining the Scriptures to us?” 33 That very hour they got up and returned to Jerusalem. They found the Eleven and those with them gathered together, 34 who said, “The Lord has certainly been raised, and has appeared to Simon!” 35 Then they began to describe what had happened on the road and how He was made known to them in the breaking of the bread.

—They were amazed. Even though it was late, they got up and left straightaway for Jerusalem to tell the others. He was with them for a long time on the road and they didn’t recognize him at all. If they hadn’t offered him hospitality, they would never have seen him for who he was.

While it is almost anticlimactic, I’m going to go on with the Gospel according to John to finish this out. The story starts in chapter 20.

John 20:1-10
On the first day of the week Mary Magdalene came to the tomb early, while it was still dark. She saw that the stone had been removed from the tomb.
—Here, Mary is by herself.

2 So she ran to Simon Peter and to the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said to them, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put Him!”

—understandably, she is very worried. She thinks someone has desecrated the tomb and stolen Jesus’ body.

3 At that, Peter and the other disciple went out, heading for the tomb. 4 The two were running together, but the other disciple outran Peter and got to the tomb first. 5 Stooping down, he saw the linen cloths lying there, yet he did not go in. 6 Then, following him, Simon Peter came also. He entered the tomb and saw the linen cloths lying there. 7 The wrapping that had been on His head was not lying with the linen cloths but was folded up in a separate place by itself. 8 The other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, then entered the tomb, saw, and believed. 9 For they still did not understand the Scripture that He must rise from the dead. 10 Then the disciples went home again.

—-In Luke, only Peter went. Here, Peter and another disciple went to see what is going on. The other disciple believes without even seeing Jesus. He trusts that what has happened is what was prophesied. Peter is still doubtful.

John 20:11-18
11 But Mary stood outside facing the tomb, crying. As she was crying, she stooped to look into the tomb. 12 She saw two angels in white sitting there, one at the head and one at the feet, where Jesus’ body had been lying. 13 They said to her, “Woman, why are you crying?”

—The two disciples are inside the tomb and Mary is standing outside. Because she is outside she gets to see Jesus. She isn’t looking for the living among the dead. She is out in the world of life and light.

“Because they’ve taken away my Lord,” she told them, “and I don’t know where they’ve put Him.”14 Having said this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, though she did not know it was Jesus.

—once again, Jesus is standing there and a person who knows him well doesn’t recognize him. If they can’t recognize him – people who spent a lot of time with him, how much harder it is for us to recognize him. Thus, how much more important it is for us to be welcoming to everyone as if they are Jesus.

15 “Woman,” Jesus said to her, “why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?” Supposing He was the gardener, she replied, “Sir, if you’ve removed Him, tell me where you’ve put Him, and I will take Him away.”
16 Jesus said, “Mary.”
Turning around, she said to Him in Hebrew, “Rabbouni!”—which means “Teacher.”

—-He said her name, and that was enough. In an instant she saw him, truly saw him. He took compassion on her, in her grief. She was distraught that her Teacher was missing. She wanted to show him the respect and honor of performing the Jewish burial rituals for him. He wanted to show her that she didn’t have to and she was worrying for nothing. He was right there.

17 “Don’t cling to Me,” Jesus told her, “for I have not yet ascended to the Father. But go to My brothers and tell them that I am ascending to My Father and your Father—to My God and your God.” 18 Mary Magdalene went and announced to the disciples, “I have seen the Lord!” And she told them what He had said to her.

—-The disciples who were right there, staring at the burial cloths, didn’t even see him. They don’t believe her. Perhaps they are a bit jealous – why would Jesus show himself to this woman first, and not them? Aren’t they his closest confidants? Aren’t they more important? If they had been standing outside they would have seen him. The longer we all continue to look in the wrong place, the longer we aren’t going to see him either.

Going on further, with John 20:19-23
19 In the evening of that first day of the week, the disciples were gathered together with the doors locked because of their fear of the Jews. Then Jesus came, stood among them, and said to them,“Peace to you!”

—-The doors are locked, and Jesus just appears amidst them. This had to be terrifying. They are in a locked room and there he is suddenly. They still don’t recognize him.

20 Having said this, He showed them His hands and His side. So the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord.

—After showing them his wounds they then see him. Notice that it is only after they see the wounds that they rejoice. They didn’t rejoice when he appeared.

21 Jesus said to them again, “Peace to you! As the Father has sent Me, I also send you.” 22 After saying this, He breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit. 23 If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”

—This is known as “The Great Commission.” Jesus calls his followers to go out into the world. He gives them the Holy Spirit as a guide. In some versions of the Great Commission, (Mark 16:19-20) he mentions that they are to heal, drive out demons, and speak in new languages. They also will be safe from all harm and poisons. In this one, they are just told to forgive sins. But no matter what, they are told to go out and do these things.

They aren’t told to go build big buildings and set up a vestry. They aren’t told to collect money for tithes or buy vestments. They are told to go out and work, in fact doing Jesus’ work. He has blessed them and in his death and resurrection he has multiplied himself, just like in the story of the loaves and the fishes. He was blessed, and broken, and now lives in us and in everyone who accepts him into their hearts and lives.

The very last bit of this part is in John 20:24-29
24 But one of the Twelve, Thomas (called “Twin”), was not with them when Jesus came. 25 So the other disciples kept telling him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “If I don’t see the mark of the nails in His hands, put my finger into the mark of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will never believe!”

—once again, here is a disciple that has to see it to believe it. This is something he has expected and been waiting for. His own friends and fellow disciples have seen Jesus and he still doesn’t believe. He should be able to trust them, right? But he still can’t. He wants proof.

26 After eight days His disciples were indoors again, and Thomas was with them. Even though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them. He said, “Peace to you!”

—Eight days later. Not instantly. Jesus is taking his own sweet time. Jesus appears when he wants to. Once again he does the magic trick of appearing in the middle of a locked room.

27 Then He said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and observe My hands. Reach out your hand and put it into My side. Don’t be an unbeliever, but a believer. 28 Thomas responded to Him, “My Lord and my God!” 29 Jesus said, “Because you have seen Me, you have believed. Those who believe without seeing are blessed.”

—Jesus knew about Thomas’ doubts. He wasn’t standing there when Thomas said he had to see Jesus’ wounds to believe that he was really back from the dead, but he knew about it anyway. He was kind to show up to assure Thomas. Notice that Thomas didn’t have to even touch the wounds – he saw Jesus and knew. But the most important part is that Jesus says that “Those who believe without seeing are blessed.”

Believe. Seek Jesus out, everywhere. He’s hiding in plain sight. The more you seek him, the more he will reveal himself to you.

I’ve adopted Mother Teresa’s philosophy at work and it has been transformative. I try my best to see Jesus in every single person I serve, and when I do that (I don’t always remember to) they open up and are very real and kind. Every person. I tell you, seek Jesus and you will find him, everywhere.

His own disciples didn’t recognize him. He appeared out of the blue, sometimes in locked rooms, and just sometimes as a fellow traveler on the road. If it was hard for them to spot him, how hard must it be for us to do the same? So we are to treat everyone as if they are Jesus.

And – we are to serve everyone with the aid of Jesus. He’s here, with us, inside each one of us who call upon him.

There is no “second coming”. It is here, already, all around us. We just have to open our eyes and look.

But wait, there’s more. In the book of John, chapter 21, versus 1-14 we read this:
After this, Jesus revealed Himself again to His disciples by the Sea of Tiberias. He revealed Himself in this way: 2 Simon Peter, Thomas (called “Twin”), Nathanael from Cana of Galilee, Zebedee’s sons, and two others of His disciples were together. 3 “I’m going fishing,” Simon Peter said to them. “We’re coming with you,” they told him. They went out and got into the boat, but that night they caught nothing.

—-Fishing is their normal activity. This is how Jesus found several of them to start off with. They weren’t scholars. They were average, everyday workers. Remember Jesus chose them, not the ministers and leaders of the day. Jesus chose common folk then, and he does the same today.

4 When daybreak came, Jesus stood on the shore. However, the disciples did not know it was Jesus.

—once again, they don’t recognize him. They’ve just seen him twice, and they still aren’t seeing him this time. We have to constantly be looking for him. He appears in different guises.

5 “Men,” Jesus called to them, “you don’t have any fish, do you?” “No,” they answered. 6 “Cast the net on the right side of the boat,” He told them, “and you’ll find some.” So they did, and they were unable to haul it in because of the large number of fish. 7 Therefore the disciple, the one Jesus loved, said to Peter, “It is the Lord!”

—-A disciple figures it out not by how the man looked or what he said, but by the amazing results. They caught a huge amount of fish. This is very interesting.

When Simon Peter heard that it was the Lord, he tied his outer garment around him (for he was stripped) and plunged into the sea. 8 But since they were not far from land (about 100 yards away), the other disciples came in the boat, dragging the net full of fish. 9 When they got out on land, they saw a charcoal fire there, with fish lying on it, and bread.

—-I like that Jesus already has a fire going for them. Raw fish isn’t very hospitable, and the warmth of the fire is comforting. I also like that there is fish and bread there – just like in the story of the loaves and the fishes.

10 “Bring some of the fish you’ve just caught,” Jesus told them. 11 So Simon Peter got up and hauled the net ashore, full of large fish—153 of them. Even though there were so many, the net was not torn.

—–I find it significant that the net was not torn by all those fish. This tells me that whatever we do, if we do it on Jesus’ command, will succeed. When we try to do things our way is when it fails. But if we do it Jesus’ way it will always be bigger and more amazing than we could ever expect, and all will be well.
12 “Come and have breakfast,” Jesus told them. None of the disciples dared ask Him, “Who are You?” because they knew it was the Lord. 13 Jesus came, took the bread, and gave it to them. He did the same with the fish. 14 This was now the third time Jesus appeared to the disciples after He was raised from the dead.

—-They knew. They were still a bit terrified. He keeps appearing, and in different guises. This is a whole new side of Jesus. They didn’t have any warning that he was going to appear anywhere and everywhere and look different every time.

Then, lastly, in John 21:15-17, Jesus talks just to Peter, who he had said earlier was the rock upon which his church was going to be built.
15 When they had eaten breakfast, Jesus asked Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me more than these?” “Yes, Lord,” he said to Him, “You know that I love You.” “Feed My lambs,” He told him.

—-Feed them. I take “feed” to mean food, of course, but also to nourish in other ways – to educate, to heal, to support. Shepherds take care of their sheep in many ways.

16 A second time He asked him, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me?” “Yes, Lord,” he said to Him, “You know that I love You.” “Shepherd My sheep,” He told him.

—Peter has to be wondering why Jesus keeps asking the same question.

17 He asked him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love Me?” Peter was grieved that He asked him the third time, “Do you love Me?” He said, “Lord, You know everything! You know that I love You.”

—-Peter is really hurt. Of course he loves Jesus. But that isn’t the point. Jesus wants to make sure he hears what he needs to do to prove it.

“Feed My sheep,” Jesus said.

So, from all this, I get that Jesus appears in many forms. So treat everyone as if they are Jesus. I believe that if everybody does this, then we will truly see healing and love in this world. If we treat every single person we meet – whether friend or stranger – as if they are Jesus, then the world will know peace.

I tell you that if we don’t do this, Jesus will walk on by, just like he was going to do to the disciples on the walk to Emmaus.

Keep the patient happy and comfortable – especially at a dentist’s office.

Dentist chairs need to be way more comfortable. This is a time of extreme discomfort. Whatever they can do to make you feel at ease is a good idea.

How about a support for my knees? How about a wider chair? Basically, how about a recliner, but in a cleanable fabric. Because sometimes dental work can get messy, and stains don’t inspire confidence. I’m pretty sure a dentist would hate to have to get a whole new chair because of slobber. So there has to be some balance between comfort and cleanability.

Having a small beanbag for a pillow is nice, as well as a blanket. Arm supports that cradle your arms are essential. Well, I had one of those, but a girl can dream. Making sure your patient is comfortable will ensure that your patient is easy to work on. My chiropractor seems to be the only person who understands this. Very few doctors seem to get how important it is to put their patients at ease by using soft colors and lights, and nice furnishings.

I dislike going to the dentist for fillings. I don’t know anybody who does like it to be honest. It is really an invasion of space. The majority of your sense organs are right there where they are working, and what they are doing isn’t that awesome.

For somebody with sensory processing disorder it can be a bit overwhelming.

Feeling the pinch in my gums and the tugging on my cheek when he gives me the shot. Hearing the sound of the drill. Seeing the spray of powder from my tooth when he drills. Smelling the burning from said tooth being drilled. All senses are being engaged, and none of them are getting good signals to work with.

I see and hear and smell things very deeply. This is part of why I am an artist. But it is also why it is hard to deal with really intense experiences like going to the dentist.

I’ve brought my phone. I can write in between bits. I can listen to a podcast during. I know a bit about meditation. Maybe some yoga practice will help.

I had a dentist when I was growing up who didn’t use anesthesia. He thought he didn’t need to. He thought he was gentle and careful. For the most part he was. But just being tense, worrying about the possibility of being hurt, was pretty bad. That alone made me never want to go back to the dentist, until not going really wasn’t an option anymore. My first trip back involved a root canal.

But at least that dentist had something interesting to look at. He had a mural on the wall that I was facing that had a huge scene. All these people doing all these things. It was kind of like the blue and white Chinese pottery called “Blue Willow”. I could get lost in it. I did. I had to. It was there that I learned to dissociate, to just not be there when something bad was going on.

My current dentist is very gentle and he uses anesthesia, but his rooms are really boring. There’s nothing to stare at or to fall in to with my mind. Today I found a spot of light shining through the blinds. It was something. The assistant kept asking me if I was OK. Yeah – until you had to bring me back to thinking about what is going on…

I’ve learned that bringing my iPhone helps. I listen to a podcast while it is all going on and that not only does that cut out the noise of the drill, my mind is occupied with something educational. I’ve also learned to consciously relax a lot. I mean a lot because I have to keep reminding myself to do it. I keep tensing up so I have to keep relaxing. Normally I’d work on my breathing, but that isn’t easy there. Too many bad smells.

In the meantime, I’ll keep brushing three times a day. The cavity that developed was around an old filling. It had lasted a long time. It was an old mercury filling so I was glad to see it go anyway. For a long time I was an old pro at getting fillings. It was so normal to me. Every time I’d go to the dentist I’d have to get a filling. Fortunately I’ve learned how to eat better and take better care of myself, so fillings aren’t my norm anymore. But I still think that the whole experience could be made better.

Maybe I need to get my chiropractor to talk to my dentist. Mood lighting is a good start. And no news or tabloid junk on the TV in the waiting room. And a nice welcoming paint job on the walls…or a mural. Yeah, that. Something to get lost in. I kind of miss that mural. I sure don’t miss that dentist.

What’s in a name?

God always has been. There is no beginning and no ending with God. God says “I am the Alpha and the Omega” as a way of illustrating that, but a better illustration is simply God’s name when Moses asked on Mt Sinai who he was talking to, and God said “I am”. The abbreviation for God, YHWH (or YHVH) has within it the letters for these Hebrew words – “is”, “was”, and “shall be”. How awesome is that?

Our human brains can’t really understand this. We can’t understand how something could exist before the Big Bang. We want beginnings. We can’t comprehend eternity. But just because we can’t understand it doesn’t mean it isn’t so.

Then again, “Jesus” isn’t Jesus’ name. That is the English version. The closest way of saying his name as it was pronounced is Yashua. There are several variants, including Yeshua and Yahshua. Why it got changed to Jesus when there is a perfectly acceptable English equivalent of Joshua is beyond me.

When I was very young we had a dog that I got to name. I was three. I don’t remember the dog at all, but I do remember the name. I named him “Joshuma,” and I can only assume that name came to me from God. I can only assume that was a three year old’s interpretation of “Yashua”. Or perhaps I did say “Yashua” to my parents and “Joshuma” is what they understood. It was pronounced JOSH-you-muh.

This is a perfect name for a dog for a child. Dogs are best friends. Dogs are protectors. Dogs teach unconditional love. These are all the same qualities of Yashua, also known as Jesus.

Here’s the funny part. Sometimes when I’m typing quickly on my Kindle, it will autocomplete. Very often when I try to type “Jesus”, my Kindle supplies “He is”.

Make of this what you will. These were my thoughts early this morning.

“Successful” vs. “Starving” artist.

Notice how unusual it is to say that someone is a “successful” artist. Usually they are a “starving” artist. You never have to say that someone is a successful doctor or successful engineer or a successful plumber. It is assumed that they are successful. But artist? It is assumed that an artist isn’t successful. It is assumed that they are scraping by, just barely making it.
Why don’t we put more value on art? I mean real art. Art that is one of a kind, not mass produced. Art that is so amazing that it doesn’t match your sofa and you don’t even care. Art that is so amazing that maybe you even buy a new sofa to match it instead of the other way around.
Real art is one of a kind, just like the artists. It takes time to make and it takes love. That is worth supporting.
When you buy original art, you aren’t just buying the materials. You are buying the artist’s time and dedication to her craft. In the same way an Olympic athlete has to train many hours to get good at what she does, an artist has to work many long hours to get good at her craft. Good artists, like good athletes just make it look easy. It isn’t.
Notice that very few people get art scholarships, and many people get athletic scholarships. What do we need more of, arts or sports? What lifts our spirits and helps us see beyond ourselves? What shows us how we are all connected? I’m not saying to get rid of sports. I’m saying that arts need to be equally supported.
So go buy some art today. Or better yet – go make some. Art is for everyone, and it makes us better people.

Go get a library card…

Having a library card is like having a gym membership. It doesn’t mean anything if you don’t use it.

There are plenty of people who come in every four years to vote in the Presidential election and they feel that they have to get a library card. Our library is an early voting site, and we have people come in that normally never go to a library. They feel that it is part of being an American to have a library card, so they sign up. Four years later, when they come in to vote again, they ask if their card is still valid. It isn’t. If you don’t use it in a couple of years it expires. So then they sign up again. Every now and then I’ll ask them if they want to go and find a book first, to see if they NEED to sign up for a card. Nope. They want to get a card. They just don’t want to use it.

Libraries are the most amazing thing ever about America. They present a free exchange of information. With a library card you can unlock any door. You can learn how to do anything. Going to the library is the best way to improve your mind and your life. It is the way out of a bad situation. It levels the playing field.

There are books at the library for everybody. Every now and then they get challenged but they usually get to stay. A book is “challenged” when someone tries to get it removed from the library. It is very hard to remove a book from the library. People don’t understand that just because they don’t like a book doesn’t mean they have the right to prevent another person from reading it. Thus, libraries have a huge variety of books to accommodate the varying needs of the community.

Yet this means nothing if they don’t use their card. What is the point of getting a library card if you don’t use it? There are plenty of countries around the world that don’t have libraries. Just being able to read is something you shouldn’t take for granted.

Plenty of people take the amazing resource that is the library for granted. If they use it at all, they will fill up on movies and fiction. That is just the icing on the cake. There is so much more to the library than this. The most amazing thing about the library is that if you want to improve your life or your community or the world, you can learn how to do it at the library. It is free to everyone.

I feel that Americans take the library and free public education for granted.

I know a lady from India who was a patron here and then went back home to India. She told me about how there were no free public libraries in India, or at least where she was. There were libraries, but you had to pay to be a member, and there weren’t that many books. Thus, people don’t really read very much.

A community that doesn’t read is a dead community.

Having a card isn’t enough. You have to use it.

If you are poor, education is the way out. Plenty of people will say that the schools are bad in their area, but this means nothing. You can have your education spoon-fed to you, or you can go hunt it down yourself. It also doesn’t matter what your local library is like. No matter what library you use, you have access to the inter-library loan system. Whatever you want, if it isn’t at your library, they can get it for you from another one. So if you don’t get a good education, the only person you have to blame is yourself.

Go get a library card. And use it. The mind you save will be your own.

Beads and writing and worker bees

Back when I was making jewelry in college, I’d have periods of extreme creativity. I’d create a whole bunch of earrings, but just one of each. I mean, I wouldn’t make the pair.

The creative juices were flowing and the last thing I wanted to do was to slow down. I knew that spurt of connection to the creative center was short so I needed to ride that wave for as long as I could. When I stopped seeing interesting combinations, I’d make the other half to the pair.

I’m learning I do the same thing with writing. I have a lot of half finished pieces. Yet the waves keep coming, and I keep getting things started. Going back and finishing pieces is the last thing I want to do.

For many of my crafts I’d love to have worker bees. I designed sweaters when I was in high school and my Mom would knit them. I designed a quilt and while I pieced it together, I had it machine finished. While my jewelry is one of a kind, after I work out the pattern I’m bored and I want someone else to finish it.

I can’t do this with writing. I have no idea where I’m going until I get there. I write to find myself. I write to learn the answers to my questions. I write to stay sane.

Writing is like going to another planet and not taking a map yet you still find yourself.

This is all stuff that can’t be done for me. It is like going to the gym. If I want to get stronger, I have to do the work.

2 Timothy 2:14-21

I don’t often refer to the words of Paul because they aren’t the Gospel. It is like watching the movie instead of reading the book. I’d rather go to the source than get a translation. But today’s reading had a lot of useful stuff in it, so here we go.

The words of Paul are letters written to churches far away. He writes to them to encourage them sometimes and to chastise them other times. Here he’s doing a bit of both.

2 Timothy 2:14-21 (NRSV)
14 Remind them of this, and warn them before God that they are to avoid wrangling over words, which does no good but only ruins those who are listening. 15 Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved by him, a worker who has no need to be ashamed, rightly explaining the word of truth. 16 Avoid profane chatter, for it will lead people into more and more impiety, 17 and their talk will spread like gangrene. Among them are Hymenaeus and Philetus, 18 who have swerved from the truth by claiming that the resurrection has already taken place. They are upsetting the faith of some. 19 But God’s firm foundation stands, bearing this inscription: “The Lord knows those who are his,” and, “Let everyone who calls on the name of the Lord turn away from wickedness.” 20 In a large house there are utensils not only of gold and silver but also of wood and clay, some for special use, some for ordinary. 21 All who cleanse themselves of the things I have mentioned will become special utensils, dedicated and useful to the owner of the house, ready for every good work.

Now, let’s look at it more carefully.

14 Remind them of this, and warn them before God that they are to avoid wrangling over words, which does no good but only ruins those who are listening.

This is the same idea as the Jewish concept of “lashon hora” – don’t speak ill of people. It is also the same as the Buddhist concept of “right speech”. It is important to not lie about people, but it is also important to not spread truths that are harmful and unnecessary. For example, if a lady you know is going to go play golf with a man who has been divorced four times, you don’t need to tell her that. But if she is going to go on a date with him that might lead to marriage, she might need to know that. Just because it is true doesn’t mean it needs to be shared.

15 Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved by him, a worker who has no need to be ashamed, rightly explaining the word of truth.

This applies to everyone. Here, Paul is making no distinctions (as we too should make no distinctions) between lay and ordained. We are all called to present ourselves as one approved by God, because we are. The fact that we are called by God means we are approved by God.

16 Avoid profane chatter, for it will lead people into more and more impiety,

This is totally true, and just as relevant today. Have you ever noticed that if you agree with someone’s gossip, they’ll just give you more? If you share some, then they’ll think that is all you want to hear. However, if you hold yourself to a higher standard then they will come to talk differently around you. If you go for the lowest common denominator in conversation, that is all you will get.

17 and their talk will spread like gangrene. Among them are Hymenaeus and Philetus,

I feel like Paul is being really rude here. So much for talking kindly about others. His own rule was that if someone was out of line, you should talk to them in private first to try to resolve it. This is a good rule for life. Calling someone out in public will only put them on the defensive. These letters of Paul’s were meant to be read out loud in the midst of the church members, as if he himself were talking to them. To call these two out is really weird and goes against the first line here.

18… who have swerved from the truth by claiming that the resurrection has already taken place. They are upsetting the faith of some.

Plenty of the disciples “swerved from the faith” of the Jews by claiming that the Messiah had come. They got in trouble for it. Is the Christian faith entirely dependent on waiting for the Messiah to come again? Will it crumble and fall when that happens? How are they upsetting everyone? Perhaps they know something that the others don’t.

What if the “second coming” isn’t going to happen as everyone expects, just like the first coming didn’t happen the way anyone expected? Even though it was prophesied, it happened quietly and surprisingly.

19 But God’s firm foundation stands, bearing this inscription: “The Lord knows those who are his,” and, “Let everyone who calls on the name of the Lord turn away from wickedness.”

This reminds me of the story from the Gospels about how sometimes the seed is sown on rocks, sometimes in sand, and sometimes in good soil. Only the seed that is in good soil will grow well. Likewise, it reminds me of the idea that not everybody is called. If you are, act like it.

20 In a large house there are utensils not only of gold and silver but also of wood and clay, some for special use, some for ordinary. 21 All who cleanse themselves of the things I have mentioned will become special utensils, dedicated and useful to the owner of the house, ready for every good work.

This is a great image. It isn’t quite as useful as Paul’s image of the body parts and the Body of Christ. We are all different, and all useful in the Body metaphor. In this, only some are useful. Still though, in this metaphor, it isn’t the called that are useful, but those who make themselves spiritually clean. There is a way to become a “special utensil” and it is open to everybody.

Paper or Plastic?

If you want to be really mindful, go to the grocery store with cash.

I’ve started using cash for everything. I’ve created an allowance for myself. Every week I go to the bank to get cash. It is really weird.

I grew up this way of course. I’m old enough that credit cards weren’t a part of life during my formative years. When I first got a credit card it was just for emergencies. Then somehow it became a way of life. Somehow the credit card became the norm and cash became the thing I used for emergencies.

So many of us reach for plastic over paper these days.

I know a young guy who bought a wallet. It took him two weeks to realize that it didn’t have a place for cash. He didn’t even think to look for a place for cash when he was buying the wallet. He was constantly scoffing at me for carrying cash at all.

There are so many advantages to using a card. You can see online what you are spending your money on. Many companies give you money back or rebates for using their cards. If you pay your card off every month, you can actually make money doing this. I did, for many years.

But it is all a trick. I spend way more money when I use my credit cards. I don’t think about what I’m buying. I need it, so I get it. Or, I think I need it. Well, sometimes I just want it.

And then I have to make a place for it. Whether it is a new dress from Goodwill or a pint of ice cream, it has to go somewhere. With the ice cream the somewhere is my butt.

Shopping with cash at the grocery store means I have to really think about what I’m getting. Do I need it? I can’t justify buying snacks and other non-food items. I’ve not bought sodas in a while, but chips and cookies are still appealing. The more money I spend on those, the less money I have for actual food that I need. You know, food with vitamins and minerals. Actual nutrition is going to win in this debate. Having limited resources makes me mindful. Thus, it means I’m eating better.

Even with a bargain dress from Goodwill, I have to be mindful. I’ve got other dresses. I’m fine. It isn’t like I don’t have clothes that fit me and look acceptable. I justify buying the dress because it is a great price. But even then I’m not being mindful of my money. Ten dollars spent is still ten dollars spent, and it adds up. Too many trips to Goodwill means I’ve spent $100 before I even know it.

A bargain isn’t a bargain if you don’t need it.

I’ve always carried at least $40 in my wallet. I rarely used it, but when I needed it I was reminded of how useful that practice is. Sometimes the credit card machine isn’t working. Sometimes your card doesn’t work. Then how are you going to buy your gas or your meal? Cash always works, and cards don’t.

Some places don’t even take credit cards. We went on a trip to North Carolina and ate at a restaurant. It was a nice meal, but what happened at the end wasn’t very nice. We found out they only took cash or checks. There was no message about this on the door or on the menu. Fortunately I always kept a spare check in my wallet and used that. Otherwise we might have had to wash dishes to pay our bill. Or one of us would have to leave to find an ATM.

These days I’m turning this around. I’m carrying the credit card as the backup and carrying cash as the main thing. I’ve done this for a week and already I’ve noticed I’ve spent $200 less than normal, and I’m eating better. Instead of eating out as often, I’m making food at home.

It is interesting how this is dovetailing into my New Year’s resolution to cook more. I’ve wanted to get better at cooking for years, and the only way to get better at cooking is simply to cook. I’ve wanted to go to the store and get fresh vegetables and cook from scratch, and now I’m doing it. I’m feeling really empowered by learning how to feed myself well. But then I started deciding to use only cash, and that is going nicely with it. Both practices are keeping me mindful of how I spend my money, which ultimately represents my time and my energy.

I’m sometimes resentful of having to spend forty hours a week at work. I’m grateful for a job, but I’d like to have more time away from it to live my life. Thirty hours would be better but it isn’t an option. But how smart is it for me to waste that money on expensive, unhealthy food and trinkets and baubles? Using my money wisely will mean I have more money saved up for bigger things, like a trip overseas, or improvements to my house. In the meantime, I’m learning how to take better care of myself, and that is the best investment of all.

Vegan Banana Bread

banana bread

Prep time – 30 minutes. Cook time 55 minutes.

Ingredients –
(dry)

2 ½ cups all purpose flour. (Or 1 ¼ all purpose flour and 1 ¼ cups brown rice flour)

I tsp baking soda

1 tsp baking powder

1/4 tsp pumpkin pie spice

pinch of salt

(wet)
4 ripe bananas

¼ cup honey

¼ cup olive oil

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

Instructions –
1. Preheat oven to 350. Grease a loaf pan (5 x 9) or use a non-stick one.

2. Whisk together all dry ingredients in a medium bowl.

3. Mash bananas in a large bowl. Whisk in the rest of the wet ingredients.

4. Add half of dry mixture to wet mixture, stir. Then add the other half. Do not overmix, but make sure that there are no pockets of dry flour.

5. Put batter into prepared pan and spread evenly.

6. Bake for 40 minutes, pull out and gently slice open the top of the bread, making a line in the center. Spread open the two sides a bit. The top middle is the last to cook, and this helps it along. Cover the loaf with some aluminum foil and put it back in for 15 minutes.

7. It is done when it is a deep golden brown and a toothpick inserted into the center comes out clean.

8. Let cool in pan on wire rack at least 10 minutes. Remove bread from pan and let cool completely on rack.

Notes-

I had a pretty awesome recipe for banana bread that I’d put together nearly twenty years ago. This isn’t quite it, but it isn’t far off.

For some unknown reason, I didn’t make banana bread at all for nearly 15 years. For some other unknown reason, I decided to make it this Monday. I tried to find the recipe and found something like what I remember, but it wasn’t in my handwriting. I looked up banana bread in a few other cookbooks and online and cobbled this together from all of that. It works pretty well. It is pretty dense. I use not-overripe bananas because my husband doesn’t like really mushy and over sweet bananas.

This tastes pretty amazing warmed up and served with ice cream. It also makes for a pretty nice breakfast on the go.

Cut up your cards.

There is plenty of paranoia these days about the government getting all of our information. Let’s go over some of it. Some of the precautions actually are worthwhile, but for other reasons.

If you are afraid of the NSA tracking your every move, then delete your Facebook and email address. Keep in touch the old fashioned way – by phone and by mail. Oh, and as for mail, get a P.O. Box, that way nobody can steal your mail. It is always safe and clean and dry.

Don’t use any “loyalty” cards either. All those keychain cards are worse than the NSA. You don’t have to worry about “them” getting into your information. Those deals and savings you get are the rewards for giving your information away. You are letting them track you. It may not be the government, but it certainly is a bunch of strangers knowing your business.

Remember Santa Claus – “He sees you when you’re sleeping, he knows when you’re awake”? With loyalty cards it is more that they know when you are buying cat food and they know how often you eat out and where. With Facebook and email and it is the same – strangers know more about you than your friends. They can see the big picture.

How about this too? Dump your smart phone with the GPS. They know where you are that way too. Every picture you take is geotagged. Every time you look up an address they know what you are doing and where you are going.

But this alone will call attention to you. Suddenly stopping doing all these things will create a sort of information void around you and that will look odd.

Then what about this – there are a lot of credit card scams these days. Target, Nordstrom’s and Michael’s just got hit by hackers. Thousands of credit cards essentially got stolen from their owners. All the information was quietly taken electronically.

The answer? Cut up your credit cards. Go back to using cash. Even checks can be tracked. Now, you can’t go in debt with not using credit cards. You can’t spend what you don’t have. So there is a legitimate reason for not using credit cards. It is a great way to stay on budget and be mindful of what you are buying. It also severely minimizes your exposure to identity theft.

So sure, you can live your life paranoid. Plenty of people do. But there are some really good reasons to stop using some of the modern conveniences we take for granted. Most of the reasons involve being mindful about what you spend and who you give your information to.

What is the point of having a security system on your house if you leave the front door wide open?